comeptition time

I have decided to have a little competition for my lovely readers.

Today I am giving you the chance to win 2 sets of Nail Inc Nails wraps. We all like to look glam don't we so these will add that extra something :)

All you need to do is write your name in the comments box below OR leave your name under this post on my facebook page https://www.facebook.com/pages/Angela-Mother-Wife-Daughter-Sister-Anxiety-sufferer/232353086952280?ref_type=bookmark and I will announce the winner at 9pm (UK TIME)

Good Luck xxx

set back

The last month has been tough.

I have been trying to deal with folic acid deficiency which has made me feel so so tired, dizzy and just yuck.
Now its the school holidays and I have to try and muster all the energy I have to get out and about with my children. Sounds easy doesn't it?

It's not :(

Its given my anxiety a new excuse to play up slightly. Yes I worry that when I go out I will be sick (part of deficiency) but I know that if I am it is not a big deal. Add to that it's really hot outside and ugh just not a good time for me I am such a winter person haha.

I will be going out  I want to go have fun with my husband and my children.

Lets get going Angela.

Looking back

Tomorrow I turn 34 (yikes when did that creep up) and I have been thinking about the things I have done so far in my life and yes that includes my battle with the lovely anxiety.

Lets have a look at some of the many things I have achieved.

• My biggest achievement has to be bringing my amazing, beautiful, clever babies into the world 

Liam 1 hour old

Liam 4

Sophie 1 hour old

Sophie 2

• Graduated college with an HND in Travel with Tourism
• Travelled to Spain 3 times, Dublin, Norway and Sweden
• Left school with my 6th year award, merit in Spanish and 8 standard grades
• I had a few jobs the most amazing job was working for a major credit card provider
• I have been to concerts and football games too many to even try and write down haha
• I got married to my man James

Last one I want to mention - my continuing battle with anxiety, writing about it now and hopefully help others.

Hamilton football cup

As it's such a lovely day we had planned on going to the nursery fun day, however, Liam decided he would much rather go outside and play football.

I love the fact he wants to go out and play rather than sitting in the house watching television or playing on the tablet.  When I was young I was never in the house, I was always out playing with friends, skipping, running around and even kicking a ball around.

You read reports about obese children and if I am honest this really worries me. Don't get me wrong I am not someone who is skinny, far from it well I used to be, but I certainly do not want my children being my size!!

So we got ready and out we went. I was playing referee and official team photographer whilst Liam, Sophie and the big kid James aka my husband were running around having a fantastic time.

Standing there watching my children having a great time outside and enjoying physical activity made me incredibly happy.

Day trips with my little family

Last year during the summer holidays we took the kids on a few days out.  We did not have the money for a holiday so this is the next best thing plus it spreads out the excitement too!
We plan on doing the same again this summer and I am really looking forward to it!!

We took them to the Riverside museum in Glasgow which is full of old cars, bikes, trains you name it, it has it. There is even an old fashioned street. Entry was free which is always good.

On another day we took them to the Kelvingrove Museum in Glasgow.  This was the first time Liam was on the underground. Poor little guy did not like it much. The museum itself is a stunning building, absolutely gorgeous inside and out.  The museum houses many different exhibitions from dinosaurs to Egyptian Pharaohs.  The kids had an amazing time and were fascinated from start to finish.

We also had a big picnic with family on my husbands side at Callendar Park in Falkirk.  They played mini gold, played in the play park, football and loads more.

My mother in law took us on an unplanned trip to the Falkirk wheel which is an incredible piece of engineering. The wheel connects 2 different canals.

Day trips to Glasgow and Falkirk are all they needed. They had days playing at the local park and outside in the paddling pool too.

Summer can be fun on a tight budget too.

Mummy is rather emotional today

Well that's it. Today was my sons last day at nursery.

I can't believe my little man starts school in August, I am pretty sure it was only yesterday that he was a tiny baby!!

I would like to thank Kildrum nursery centre for the support they have given Liam over the 16 months he attended.

Below are some pictures of my boy from his first day and his graduation day.

Very proud mummy

First day at nursery Feb 2013

Graduation day June 2014

My gorgeous boy after his graduation.

Anxiety poem by Caroline Bartholomew

it is scary sometimes when I can't leave my house 

the feeling I have inside that stops me from living my life 

I just want to go out and watch my kids play 

but anxiety has hold of me today

 sometimes I manage to open the door and step outside for a second 

but today I froze at the hallway right by the door.

  

you see it's not nice being me 

when you have anxiety 

it can come at any minute of the day 

you see it is scary being me 

somedays I may manage to get to the shop 

or even the kids school 

but anxiety can strike at any moment at any second of the day 

sometimes I can have it all day

I sometimes wonder what it's like to live like other people 

who can leave their house freely and do as they please 

and be there on their friends wedding day when the photographer says say cheese 

and wonder what it is like being able to go on holiday and travel the world 

and meet new people and make new friends

but I am me and I have anxiety 

there's not much I can do about it 

but just try get through the day the best way I can 

and try help other people understand

understanding is what we all need to do more 

because sometimes a person may look ok 

even if they are hurting inside or have a illness or condition we can't see  

like depression, cancer, and many other things including anxiety 

so next time you see someone in the street stop and say hello 

ask that person how they are feeling and if they are ok 

because sometimes that can make our day

when someone takes a moment to see if we are fine 

and I'm sure you'll be surprised to how many different people 

that look ok from the outside

are suffering inside

**copyright Caroline Bartholomew

I would like to say a massive thank you to Caroline for her poem.  To see more posts from Caroline please visit her blog at nomorefrizzyhairdays.blogspot.co.uk