Tuesday, 28 April 2015

Anxiety's Eviction Notice 2015



In 2006 when I was first diagnosed with anxiety, I lost a lot of "friends" who had decided that I wasn't the same person anymore.  I would honestly love to know how they came to that conclusion.
 After the initial diagnosis, I admit, I did disappear into myself as I had no idea what was really happening to me.  One minute I was loving life next I was too scared to leave the house. So like many other, I hid away.



Slowly I realised that anxiety was only a tiny part of me, in fact I didn't have anxiety, I lived with it like a housemate that I would bump into every so often.  Once I looked at it in that way, I became more confident and slowly the anxiety pretty much vanished, until it reappeared last year, and there was me thinking I had already served anxiety an eviction notice!

As had happened first time round, people didn't know how to talk to me or how to act around me, like I was fragile and would break.  It was then I decided I had to tell people 
"Hey I am still me, I am no different, talk to me normally I won't break"

Back to 2007 and having had enough of being stuck in my hometown I decided to take a trip up north and watch my favourite football team play.  Since that day I was out and about living life normally again, yes I am pretty sure anxiety may have made a small appearance but if it did I certainly didn't notice it.  Today I am still aware of it being there but I am getting out and about again, and just like in 2007, I am getting onto a train and heading to a mental health event, on my own, in Glasgow.  It is time to face it head on.



Anxiety, I hereby serve you with another eviction notice.  You are no longer welcome in my brain or in my life. Thank you for serving your time and making me a stronger person. I no longer need or want you in my life. Goodbye and thank you.


38 comments:

  1. Good for you! Sounds like you are better off without some of your old "Friends" you don't need the negativity. I wish you luck and happiness for your happy future :)

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    1. Thank you for your kind words. No-one needs negative people in their life, they just make life harder xx

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  2. Love this! Goodbye anxiety....hope he doesn't call again, he really isn't welcome.

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    1. I am changing the locks this time lol x

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  3. I realised that I have to live with my issues and if friends can not cope than more fool them!

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    1. Exactly! It is at times like this that you realise who your real friends are x

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  4. Well done you for being so positive.

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    1. Thanks :-) It is better to look at it in a positive way than let it ruin my life. Im in control, anxiety is not hehe x

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  5. Good for you tackling things head on. Hope you find the conference useful

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    1. Thank you :) I am lookling forward to it xx

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  6. Well done you and good luck with everything!

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  7. They weren't friends and I am sorry you had to experience that. Wel done on showing anxiety the door x

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    1. No they were not, however, it has only made me a stronger person x

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  8. Fantastic - what a post and goodbye anxiety!

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  9. Brilliant - so delighted for you, I hope you continue to make progress :) You've done so well!

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  10. Good for you, it may be an ongoing battle but at least you are wining and your real friends will be there for you x

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    1. Thanks. If it wasn't for my family, real friends and my lovely followers I wouldnt be at this stage i would still be a mess so thank you everyone x

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  11. i love this post its a great idea as i done this a few years back and its the best thing i had done

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    1. Glad you like my post! Evicting anxiety is the best feeling ever x

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  12. good for you - i am a big believer of facing things head on

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  13. I lost friends as a result of my anxiety - which hit me hard at the time, but I had to ask myself whether they really were friends to behave like that? With anxiety, you're still the same person - just with some stuff that you need to deal with - and need people close to you to help you to deal with too. You've done so, so well - I'm so proud! xx

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    1. It is hard when you lose friends but as you say you question if they really were friends at all. We all go through hard times sadly it is part of life and I know I would never walk away from a friend in a horrible situation. Thank you! Your support means a lot xxxxx

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  14. I love your description, 'like a housemate I bump into occasionally', so accurate!

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    1. I think giving it a name like that makes it less scary and pretty much sums it up really lol. x

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  15. good for you!! My teen suffers a lot from anxiety, and will be telling her of your housemate metaphor!

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    1. Hi Sonya. I hope she is ok and that the housemate metaphor works for her too, I am sure it will xx

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  16. I am an anxiety suffered so you have my sympathy lovely .. hope it clears out soon!

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    1. thank you! It is horrible. I have now packed its bags and thrown them out lol x

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  17. Way to go girl! I hope you can finally part for good and never meet again.

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    1. Thank you :) time to get rid of the nightmare lol x

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  18. I know exactly how you feel lovely, I have it too. I've been fine for ages then it's popped up again this week, it's so annoying :( xx

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    1. Anxiety can be sneaky but we are ready for it and will beat it xx

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  19. Fab post - I think you are so strong x Kaz

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