Look at the picture above? I look so carefree and happy. Yes I was happy here but I was getting stomach pains, cramps, headaches and tiredness. I was taking the full dosage of paracetamol a day just to make sure we all had a great holiday where my condition didn't spoil thing.
Severe PMS (PMDD) is hell on earth. Of course I know it could be so much worse than aches, pains and mood swings but people need to realise this condition is very real and it really does make every day life hard to deal with. Just earlier on I broke down in tears asking why am I like this? What have I done to deserve it? I am 35 I should be able to take on anything the world throws at me, yet I can't.
The anxiety part of it, believe it or not, is actually the easiest part to deal with because I know those symptoms are harmless. The hard part is the physical pain, the abdominal cramps, muscle ache, headaches, my sinuses flare up, I feel sick and the tiredness is unreal. Don't get me wrong some of the psychological symptoms hurt too like feeling angry for no reason, crying at something so silly or most likely for no reason and knowing that the medication I have tried has made no difference is awful.
It gets that bad some days that I have actually turned to my husband and said "I wish it was only anxiety I had as I would have been better by now" Some days are much harder than others. I just wish I could get my referral for a hysterectomy. Yes that is a massive operation and even my GP said it is a last resort but as I am limited to medication I can try that last resort is coming so much closer.